My name is Jordan and this is my journal. It comes straight from the journal I keep with me at all times and write in everyday. Some things you should know. I am a girl. I am a lesbian. I love music. I'm a huge nerd. I suffer from general anxiety, OCD, and I have Bipolar II disorder (rapid cycling). Hence the journaling. I want to get better and this is my first step. Care to come on this journey with me? Welcome to the depths of my mind. Welcome To Insanity.
I just want someone to love…
Get’s on Tumblr, checks blog, 50 BAJILLION NOTES OF PEOPLE REBLOGGING MY CUTS
This blog is so much more than that to me… I don’t mind that people do that, but it’s not what this blog is here for. Don’t follow me if all you care about is seeing the latest pictures of my cuts… I’m trying to stop. Those pictures are of slip ups and situations where I couldn’t fight the urge anymore. It’s not something I’m proud of, but this is my journal and it’s something that I want to document so that I remember it.
I bet at least half of you or more don’t even read my text posts. *shrug*
I just want to journal and to use this to help people… that’s all I want. Not to publicize my addiction to cutting.
Going to get blood work done later to get my Lithium levels checked. I have a psychiatrist appt. on Monday. It’s a good thing I don’t mind needles.
In other news, I’m so fucking bored. Traffic sucks, people don’t know how to fucking drive in Virginia, my dad’s driving makes me nauseous and I have to pee so bad.
On the bright side, I’m alive, I feel good (for the most part, fucking cramps), and I don’t have any urges to self harm or kill myself. Woo!