It's one thing... I don't know if they'll understand
I’m gay, a lesbian, a lover of the ladies.. And to the world the typical lesbian is short hair, men’s clothing.. butch women. Then there’s the apparently majestic “what? no, you’re not really a lesbian” lesbians who look like girls “should” look, femmes.
I guess I’d fit in the typical butch lesbian category. But the way I dress and the shortness of my hair have nothing to do with my sexuality.
I say these things because on average, people, the one’s closest to me included, believe that my boyishness is a part of my being gay.. No. This is why I don’t think it will be easy for them to understand.
Along with the fact that people don’t seem to understand the difference between sex and gender and that there are multiple genders, not just man and woman… I am about 97% sure that I am genderqueer.. I’ve thought about it a lot, looked up the gender spectrum, contemplated who I am and why I don’t really feel like a girl and don’t mind maybe even like it when people mistake me for a boy or tell me I look like one. I’ve talked to my girlfriend about it briefly.. Briefly because it didn’t take her long to go “yup you probably are”. I know I’m not trans, although it has crossed my mind and I’m oddly fascinated by ftm transgendered dudes. I like the body I was born in, my lady parts, it’s the conflict between man and woman going on in my head that throws me. I am a female, I am supposed to be a girl, but for the most part I like things typically considered for guys and my personality is very guyish. Which is why I believe myself to be genderqueer..
The dilemma I have is in explaining this to my family and maybe friends and should I even? I’d still go by the same gender pronouns. It wouldn’t change the way I am. Hopefully it wouldn’t change their views of me.. Should I even bother? Eh okay I guess what I’m trying to convey here is..
Let it be known Tumblr family, I’m genderqueer.
